Self-fulfilling Prophecies.

End of 2011

2011-12-31T05:32:00.002+08:00

Oh, hi there.

I guess it’s best for me to write down my thoughts about the end of the year once again after not having done so for quite a while.
Not that I really believe it would happen but hey, if 21/12 were to happen, at least my thoughts are recorded somewhere.
I think.
Anyway, 2011 isn’t really the kind of year I’d be willing to go around shouting “what a wonderful year this is!”
Why?
I lost my job this year.
A job that I had for 3 years, a job that I can honestly say I loved, but impressions can be changed fast by the most trivial of things, hence the past tense.
And with that job, I lost some of the greatest colleagues I’ve known thanks to this simple rule: Information that gets passed on gets twisted.
For the past 3 years I felt like I wasn’t invisible.
I belonged there and my life was directed.
Once I even skipped my class so I could work because when I was there, I wasn’t that solitary guy who keeps everything to himself, who walks into and out of class without being noticed, who had no say in discussions and whose actions were often misunderstood.
And if losing that job wasn’t bad enough, when I was in need of someone to talk to a friend I was close to went rogue.
When I was younger I imagined a place where one does not have to worry, where happiness is abundant and where there was assurance that the sufferings one has to endure was bearable.
When I got that job, I knew the place I had imagined had come true.
When it was all taken away from me, I was undeniably lost.
My life spiralled into an abyss of depression.
For a prolonged moment I felt hopeless, not knowing where my future leads me.
I endured grief everyday and my life was in turmoil. I didn’t know what the purpose of my life was anymore and anything I did to help myself overcome this episode seemed futile.
Every single day I would sit at that bench by the carpark, listen to that one particular song and reminisce about the things that had happened, while re-running through scenarios of ‘what ifs?’ in my head that I could have done to avoid this tragedy.

But what goes around comes around and with that, I made new friends, and also I was able to strengthen the bond I had with my secondary school friends.
Funny thing is it all started with an activity that the colleagues I lost were very much fond of; Supper.
Don’t get me wrong, having friends is still important even as we grow older because I feel that they are the ones who can provide me with the strength to move on, and I can vouch for them that they really did.
All the pleasures in life that we created when we were together was the source that brought me happiness because then, I felt a sense of belonging once again and I was no longer a mindless zombie going through the routines of living every day.
That charity of time you donated brought back within me the rainbow-lined meaning of living, and made a huge difference in my life.

So if you’re reading this, thank you E1’ners and thank you Supper Club, for setting aside your precious time just so that we could all share our moments in life and experience the joy of living!
Let's all be matured about this, shall we?
I love each and every one of you and I mean it.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart!

This is the year that I can proudly tell anyone “2011 deserves a proper farewell and will be the year that will be dearly remembered.”

Happy New Year.

Ja Kh

2011-12-08T02:20:00.001+08:00

What is this feeling?
Why do I feel all gooey inside?

Whenever she's around my day will be complete.

Belicia, Primary 3 Crush

2011-10-31T23:01:00.001+08:00

I didn't know what made me do it, but I finally mustered the courage to talk to the one I used to love.

We met in primary 3, and we really had fun ever since then!

Sigh.

Why do good things come to an end?

in this life

2011-08-29T02:21:00.000+08:00

Where did I go wrong in this life?

why?

2011-08-29T02:18:00.001+08:00

I only wanted a sincere celebration.
Is is too much to ask for?

I know I've sacrificed my time for others.
When is mine?

Joining

2011-08-19T01:37:00.001+08:00

Anyone wanna join me on the 21st?

Promise on the 21st of August.

2011-08-19T01:19:00.002+08:00

A few days later, and it'll be the third year since I've made that promise to myself.

Hahaha I'm so weak.

I procrastinate too much, to the extent that I still can't even do it after 3 fucking years.

This is the time of the year when I am most miserable of all 'miserables'.

Flirt.

2011-02-07T12:06:00.002+08:00

In serious cases, flirting leads to love.
And being in love hurts.

Moral of the story? Never flirt unnecessarily.

Money woes

2011-01-25T19:59:00.002+08:00

Where, and how am I going to get the money to repair my bike...

Virgin Accident

2011-01-24T22:48:00.004+08:00

I guess up till today, I've taken the responsibility of a rider as lightly as I possibly could.

I should have understood clearly from the beginning that for every decision I make while on the machine, others' lives are at stake, if not mine.

The pain I feel may be unbearable, but the guilt of inflicting pain to another person, knowing that he/she has no control over what is being done and is solely relying on the rider's ability to handle the machine isn't something you'd want to experience.

A heavy burden.

What is happiness?

2011-01-20T20:53:00.002+08:00

I've gotten what I wanted, so why am I still unhappy?

What does it mean to be happy?

To get what you want, or to be satisfied with what you currently have?

Longing.

2011-01-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

I long to tell you the truest words, I have to say to you;
but I dare not, being afraid that you would not believe them.
That is why I disguise them in untruth, saying the contrary of what I mean.
I make my pain appear absurd, afraid that you should do so.

Emotional kid in class.

2010-12-21T01:37:00.002+08:00

I did it.

And without a purpose and reason, too.

I barely know the names of even half of my new classmates.

It's been 10 weeks since class started, but yeah, I still do not know them.

It wasn't like this for me during the past 3 semesters.

It's not like me to be like this.

Honestly I don't know why I chose to portray myself as a quiet kid in class, more preferably as an outcast.

Why?

Back

2010-12-21T01:14:00.002+08:00

Feels good to be blogging again.

I've decided that from now on, the contents of my blog should be in relations with my emotions.

I will no longer waste my time posting pointless blogposts such as "oh, i bought nasi lemak for lunch today, weee".

Okay that's that.

I'm curious though.

They say love knows no boundary.

So let me ask you this.

Is age considered a boundary?

If I were to fall in love with someone who is 5, no, maybe 10 years older than I am, will I be condemned?

Honestly I dont really care if I was condemned, I'm just curious.

Heart.

2010-09-27T02:52:00.001+08:00

I wish there was a corner of your heart for me.

I wish there was a corner of your heart..

Just for me.

Promises, promises.

2010-09-27T02:48:00.001+08:00

I never kept my promise.

Why am I not surprised?

Any moment, within moments.

2010-09-03T02:35:00.000+08:00

I'm extremely shocked right now.

I randomly typed "Melissa Toh" in facebook's search bar just to see what has been updated and I was surprised to see that her profile was available (even though it wasn't supposed to be, since, you know....) and I clicked on it.

And I looked through her posts and saw that she posted status updates in June and July.

How could that happen?

And when I refreshed the page , it was all gone.

This shows that anything and everything can happen at any moment, within moments.

And I was blessed to be able to experience a moment so rare.

Sweet words from Teresa, my friend.

2010-05-19T23:38:00.007+08:00

"you're paranoid"

"cos as a friend,i dont judge you"

"the more you reveal your true self"

"the more i feel we have things in common"

"then we can bond ma"

"you keep maintaining the good boy side"

"doesnt make much difference"

"somemore you wear a mask, dont you feel uncomfortable?"

"i only judge by your character and nature"

"for me la"

"i dont judge by what ppl do"

"really ma, its like"

"you know how to enjoy and you can still think responsibily and do your work in school"

"isnt that the best of life?"

"balanced "

"but its hard la"

This conversation made me realise a lot of things.

That's right,friend, you've helped me open another door in my life!

Thank you!

Jun Long, please, change.

2010-05-16T02:06:00.004+08:00

On the day that I decided to help Jun Long change for the better, I knew that I was going to have a lot of responsibility.

It's tough, really.

Trying to change someone who's like a mirror image of yourself in the past.

I hope I'll succeed.

Doesn't matter if I'm hated by him for life, I really, really that I'll be successful in changing him.

Please.

Bravery at it's prime.

2010-05-13T15:23:00.002+08:00

C.K.H got what he deserved.

He was going on and on about students not paying attention during lesson when suddenly, a classmate of ours packed up her belongings, walk right up to him, and walked out the door and slammed it.

I salute you.

Changing.

2010-05-08T01:14:00.001+08:00

I want to change my lifestyle.

I want to be new.

In Loving Memory of Lim Chin Huat

2010-05-04T16:02:00.005+08:00

Barely a week ago, Melissa Toh's death agonized her family,friends and strangers regardless of who they were, and that includes me.
It was traumatizing.

And now, earlier this morning, Lim Chin Huat,or "Ah Huat" as most of us from Hougang Pastamania would call him, passed on.

Both resided and died in Ang Mo Kio avenue 3.

Life, as always, is fragile and at any moment, anyone can be so unfortunate as to face death.
That's the easy part.
Thing is, when a person passes on, the ones that the victim left behind, becomes the victim.

Moments together that were once so true, so real, are now mere memories.

Lim Chin Huat was the kind of guy you wouldn't initially expect to be friends with,
but life, as myterious as always, has its ways of creating wonders and miracles that no one would ever be able to explain.

Gone are the moments when our lives at work would be so much more lively thanks to his indirect but explicitly funny jokes.
Gone are the nags that we would receive for reliving our childhood while working.

I honestly feel that for every death that has occurred in my life, I was actually prompted to learn not to be selfish, and that I should cherish the people I love and show it to them while they are still around. Because if they're no longer in this world, there's no way for them to know how I really felt about them.

And it makes me really sad to think that I've not been brave enough to allow myself to approach him and thank him for everything he did for me, thanks to his fearsome exterior.

No words that can be written can describe the stark and utterly horrifying grief I feel.

Tell me this is a dream.

Please wake me up.

In loving memory of our beloved Ah Huat,
Our Dearest Friend and Colleague.

Rest in peace.

Post #3

2010-05-02T02:38:00.000+08:00

Post #3 in August.

I have to keep the promise I made.

What we seek.

2010-05-02T02:13:00.000+08:00

"Can everyone please start expressing their love and appreciation to their loved ones and friends from this moment on and never hold back telling whoever "I love you"; "I'm sorry"; "Thanks dearly" before it's too late? Melissa Toh was a stranger to me yet her departure held great meaning to those she left behind."

Emotions.

2010-05-02T01:11:00.003+08:00

I've got a question.

And I'll be grateful if it can be answered.

"Why?"

I'm emotionally weak.

Salvation

2010-04-30T23:52:00.003+08:00

Is suicide the only way out?

Being doubtful of your existence shouldn't be an option for you.

There's more to life, and you have to realise that.

Desperately chasing after someone who would only exploit your weaknesses shouldn't be made your priority in life.

Receive hardship with open arms, and in time, those very arms would provide you with strength.

The salvation that you seek is not beyond grasp.

R.I.P Melissa Toh

2010-04-30T09:53:00.002+08:00

Came across a facebook group page titled "In Loving Memory of Melissa Toh"

And I was somehow inspired.

R.I.P Melissa Toh.

4E1'08 chalet.

2010-04-21T10:55:00.001+08:00

I found this while looking through my desktop computer.

4E1'08 Chalet.

Car

2010-04-20T19:55:00.003+08:00

Met Mas at woods interchange, and walked to school with her today.

I think it's going to be a routine (:

Anyway, HaoG gave me and Mas a lift in his Cerato Forte Koup today during our first meeting break, and damn, that car's really awesome, though I still think that Kia is terrible.

The car looks small on the outside, but it's really spacious inside.

Awesome car.

Gee.

I envy that guy.

He's only 19, and he already has his own sports car.

Ranom

2010-04-19T22:19:00.001+08:00

In 2009 as a year 1 student, I had a classmate who was so obsessed with this chinese mediacorp actor that she was willing to sacrifice her attendance in class just to meet him.

Why?

2010-04-18T00:08:00.001+08:00

There is so much hatred within me.

Why?

Goodbye, good luck.

2010-04-16T23:05:00.001+08:00

Today was my final outing with the "brothers" of 4E1.

Sigh.

On a side note.

2010-04-15T21:50:00.003+08:00

Ever wonder why I keep trying so hard to organise outings and events?

It's simple.

I want my wish to be fulfilled.

A simple wish.

A wish that is actually within my grasp, but too far for me to get a hold of.

I do not want to be ignored,
and I just want to be accepted,
and acknowledged.

I do not want to be forgotten.

That's all I'm asking for.

In one glorious harmony.

2010-04-15T09:14:00.004+08:00

15th April 2010.

Today marks the beginning of a new life.

A new class.

Surprisingly, I was the first to reach my classroom. And oh, don't get me started about how unlucky I am to get a class located somewhere that isn't of my preference.

A few moments after I came in, I was greeted by Chen Chen. Coincidentally, we're both in the same class. Again.

I am confused. I do not know whether I should be excited or disappointed.

I'll just leave it at that I guess.

I was half-expecting to be in a class that is, once again, lacking of "chio bu's", like how it was in both my classes in Year 1.

But...

Wow.

By the time class had started, the class was filled with at least 4 chio bus.

Oh hell why am I talking about chio bus -.-

Gah who cares, anyway the point is, my classmates are lively, and some of them have already "opened up" even though today's only the first day of school.

And that is awesome!

:D

Dreams of the forgotten child.

2010-04-11T00:24:00.007+08:00

"Welcome back, Akkie. Nice holiday, aye?"

I bet that if my blog could actually speak, I would instantly be greeted with those words.

Well, laziness is a habit that really isn't avoidable, and I happen to have much, much better things to do than spending my time blogging my heart out, or so I thought.

But I've realized that without blogging, memories that I'm fond of would gradually be forgotten, especially my ability to remember things is terrible.

What's even worse is that, I may remember things that had not really "happened", an instance also known as "false memory", and it could be bad in the long run.

See what I mean? I forgot to put the word "since" after "especially" in the previous sentence.

Sigh.

Okay so anyway, I would not have started blogging once again if I wasn't compelled to.

This is a very,very long story.

Be prepared to be bored to the extent that you'll die a horrible death.

You see, a year ago, in 2009, around march (if i remembered correctly), I was working at Pastamania with Murali Tharan, the bloody guy who quit after Pastamania's one year opening anniversary.

So anyway, the both of us were working together on that particular day in March.

I had cashiering duties to attend to, while Murali was busy running his duty outside.

After the noon crowd ended, there was nothing left for us to do and we got bored, so he went inside the cashier counter and started chatting with me.

As we were talking, a couple approached the outlet and as they were waiting to be seated, my attention was focused on the woman.

The woman, somewhat familiar, had eyes that were glowing green, as if carved out of pure emerald.

She wore a tight blue cardigan with a white undershirt underneath it and her black slim-fit jeans hugged her legs tightly, and overall what she wore perfectly complimented her curvaceous body.

Her smile was heavenly, and as she did so, her face emanated a radiant glow and I was soon convinced that she could be the offspring of Aphrodite herself.

Murali soon had his attention focused on her, too, and so did the kitchen crews.

I knew at that point of time that I was infatuated, and I hated to be in situations like these.

Murali could ascertain my infatuation just by looking at my facial expressions, and I was not surprised.

Murali, being the handsome fucker and a flirt, pretended to "know her" so that her male companion wouldn't get suspicious and began talking to her, and after a while, he got to know her name.

He then told me to accept a bet.

A simple bet.

A bet, that I deemed safe and accepted without thinking twice.

A bet, that I thought would mean nothing at all.

A bet, that would ruin my life soon.

He said,

"Hey Akmal! Maybe she's in Republic Poly! Okay if by any chance she was in Republic Poly and you were to be posted in the same class as she is, you are going to tell her that you love her straight to her face.Doesn't matter when, just tell her before the semester for that particular class ends!"

And I accepted, thinking the chances are way too low.

Today, when I looked at my new class roster for my Year 2 Semester 1 lessons, I took a good look at it.

My mouth opened wide.

I looked at it once more.

My mouth opened even wider.

Desperate, I kept on clicking on the refresh button to see if somehow, LEO's system that was notable for it's ability to display inaccurate information was causing this,this outrageous content to be displayed on my laptop screen.

The screen displayed the same information.

I rubbed my eyes and looked at it again.

On the class roster, I scrutinized every single name, noting everyone's first name, middle name, last name and surname.

There were 25 columns in total, each column containing each person's name.

And on the 17th column, her name was written in it.

"_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _".

By then, my heart was already pumping rapidly and i was trembling from the adrenaline rush.

Who would have thought that this could happen?

I certainly didn't.

I guess this marks the beginning of a new story.

A story that would probably teach me not to act so hastily.

A story that would probably convince me that miracles do happen.

A story that would probably change my life, forever.

Sacred geometry, where movement is poetry.

Alone at home, cool?

2010-01-12T00:37:00.004+08:00

Hasn't be blogging for one months because my english as the days past by getting many more terrible because I were affected by much thing.

I were trying my best to learn my best in school but all the teacher in schools just teach me shit like the rubbish in rubbish truck.

Very bad,no?

Okay, I bet my sarcasm was evident enough for you to actually be able to notice it.

If you can't, dial 999 and say "Hi I'm going to rob a bank" when requested to identify yourself.

Trust me, something good will happen.

Going to be "alone" at home for 4 days and 3 nights.

Cool, or uncool?

It's 1am right now and I've barely been able sleep for more than 3 hours for the past 3 days.

What's happening to me?

School's going to end in 3 weeks' time, and we're going to dress up in our formal clothings next week.

Pretty much the same scenario as last semester.

Week 13, formal.

Memories.

Sigh.

"You gave me all but the reason why."

Punat Productions

2009-12-06T17:21:00.000+08:00

Punat Productions Presents...

The Anti Boredom Key

worst ppt ever

2009-11-23T15:01:00.001+08:00

Today's communication presentation was the most terrible presentation i've ever made..

Clement wasn't here to guide us, so I had to guide the others...

And I'm an introvert, to begin with.

I should've known...

Zhaoing would have been better than staying...

Sigh...

Akkie, signing off.

Sensitivity

2009-11-16T19:36:00.001+08:00

I brought it upon myself.

& I have to suffer the consequences.

Friday 13th

2009-11-13T08:03:00.003+08:00

Notice that today's the 13th of November, and today's Friday.

Okay so, the marketing faci didn't turn up today.

& Sammy turned up instead of Freddy.

How convenient.

What is happening to the world?

&, Gabriel and Megala fought with each other verbally.

Things are getting more and more interesting.

Will keep on updating.

Okay, Friday the 13th, do your thing, keep the reoccurances coming.

Emo

2009-11-12T21:33:00.004+08:00

I can be very selfish.

I want, no, I NEED acknowledgement.

I want my friends to SHOW me that, I am THEIR friend.

That's why, it's hard for me to have close friends.

Because I do not treasure them.

But when they're gone, I'll desperately seek them.

Why?

Because I need attention.

So, what am I?

What is wrong with me?

Something like this already happened in Primary School, Secondary School & W16P.

It's W46F next.

History is just repeating itself, there's no surprise about it.

& Eventhough I have indirect control over it, I am not able to overcome my selfish and sensitive nature, because I do not have the courage to do so.

They call it Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, and so on.

Go check them up on the internet if you like.

Why do I have, or claim to have, all these disorders?

Someone enlighten me, please, I beg of you.

Someone once told me that, a rich man, is a man who is content with his posessions.

Akkie, signing off.

Bursary, woman fainted.

2009-11-12T19:31:00.002+08:00

Okay, I received my bursary award thing.

And now, I have more money.

I feel good.

Woohoo.

Sogreat.

Oh btw, on the way back home from dinner, while I was onboard bus service 93, the bus braked abruptly at a traffic junction and a woman passenger died after she fell.

The end.

Okay no, that wasn't what happened.

The woman fell and cried, and she just laid there, resuing to budge.

Seriously, wtf?

I mean, if she had knocked her head on the metal pole or something else and she fainted, it's understandable.

But she just fell on her knees and after that, she proceeded to lie down on the bus floor.

Wasted almost half an hour of my time.

I'll call her " Pompan kecoh to the max siol "

Monotomy ftw.

Akkie, signing off.

Bursary

2009-11-12T14:24:00.002+08:00

Life is a bitch.

Well, sometimes.

And i'm getting more distant from them.

Going to collect my bursary award later on, and the faci allowed me to leave early.

That's very kind of her.

Anyway, my friend made this equation earlier, and I find it very interesting.

"
Pleasure = Thinking about you.
Torture = Thinking about you too much.
"

It's interesting.

Akkie, signing off.

Sensitive.

2009-11-11T09:37:00.006+08:00

I should restrain myself from going into an emotional breakdown, once again.

I ~~was~~ still am a fool.

I should not get too attached to anyone, yet.

Logic & Anger

2009-11-10T17:26:00.003+08:00

Fallacies, circular reasoning and dilemmas.

I think I'm going to learn more about it.

Very interesting.

Especially the "Catch - 22" .

There's a one-inch scar on my left arm.

It feels kinda unique to have one.

Maybe I should get more.

Anger gets the better of you, when all you want to do is solve matters,
Turns your mind and switches to overdrive,
You attack, defy your true feelings,
From lust, to anger, to defeat of whatever you have wished for.

So much hate, anger and lust,
Where is the trust?

Akkie, signing off.

2009-11-09T15:35:00.002+08:00

Communication today was rather tough.

Emphasis is given on the application of skills needed to create a poster, and that IS tough.

Luckily, Valerie Tan Si Pei helped me out , yo !

See, I wrote down your full name somemore leh !

Thanks a lot siol !

Had my laptop serviced for the 2nd time this month

Marketing ut.

2009-11-05T22:52:00.004+08:00

Maths II, today.

I was contemplating if I should arrive on time or purposely be late.

After a while, I decided to be on time.

& the present I get for arriving on time?

No MATHS II faci !

FUCK YEAH, BODOH !

FUCK THY WORLD !

A relief faci came.

Talked and talked, etc. Did what other RP students would do everyday.

Played facebook games, etc.

At least this guy's a notch better than that woman faci.

Yay.

&& Rachel's actually very good in maths !

She discovered the answers to the concepts and whatnots even faster than the time limit the faci gave us before he told us the answers.

Gosh you're so smart ! Haha.

But seriously, I really hate maths and I wouldn't want to even bother to do anything related to maths.

So I watched this gory movie called "Ginger Snaps" , the whole day.

Presented, and everything turned out to be okay, except that the faci thought the me, rachel and chen chen didn't do anything.

Okay I admit, I was watching that movie most of the time, but i still did the trial and error thingy(which was damn frustrating) and managed find some answers.

Urgh, screw integrity.

Marketing UT today was okay.

Ups and Downs, here and there.

Expected.

Anyway, on a totally unrelated note, I think I am going to give up, if you know what I mean.

Thing is, none of you do.

& that's sad.

Goodbye.

Akkie, signing off.

Epic failure.

2009-11-04T22:43:00.002+08:00

Watched the soccer match between Singapore & Indonesia.

My very first time watching a real live soccer match.

Epic failure.

&, there were female suria actresses behind me and they were behaving like kids.

Epic failure.

&, I don't know if I should feel the same, in class anymore...

Epic failure.

Akkie, signing off.

Epic failure.

Cognitive UT 1

2009-11-03T18:49:00.002+08:00

Cognitive UT1 today.

& since Violet Chan is no longer my cognitive facilitator, I think I will do pretty badly for this UT.

Okay but, actually the questions were really easy.

If you've read the 6p's, you'd be able to do it easily.

But still, I don't think I'm going to do well for the UT because my current faci is a "L.K.K".

What does L.K.K mean?

It's for me to know, and not for you to find out.

The end of Madrasah.

2009-11-02T20:55:00.004+08:00

I just realised that, last sunday was the very last day of religious lessons for me.

As in, last sunday was the very last day of religious school.

I feel really weird.

I've been going to that without fail since I was like, 5 years old?

I've always dreaded going to that school, and I've always prayed for the lessons to reach a permanent end, soon.

& now, here I am, at 17.

12 years of religious lessons, finally ended.

&, it looks like my wish was granted.

But somehow, I feel like...I don't know.

I don't feel good. I don't feel that sense of accomplishment.

Instead, I feel like as if I've lost something very dear to me.

I've grown up with that school.

All these years, I've been to that school.

It's like as if, it has become part of me, part of my life.

A routine.

& I've got a very bad habit of not being able to adapt to new situations, or getting out of routines.

Sigh.

Sometimes, it's the journey that counts. You'll despise something and you'd wish that it would've ended soon, but once it does, you'll be longing for it.

Human emotions are very, very weird.

I'll miss that school.

& I'll miss all my friends who were with me in that school, all the way.

It looks like it's time for us to go our separate ways.

Seriously, it ended just like that, like a snap.

No ceremonies, no nothing.

Okay wait, they did have a huge ceremony last sunday, but I didn't attend it.

Sigh.

1997-2009.

Even way longer than any other education institutions that i've been to.

Primary school was 6 years, and secondary school was 4 years.

This particular school that I've recently "graduated" from without even attending the official ceremony, was 12 years.

Even more than primary & secondary school combined.

Sigh.

Goodbye.

:(

Akkie, signing off.

Thank you, Jia Hui

2009-11-02T18:26:00.002+08:00

Zhao-ed class again today.

Oh no, I am soo not a bad boy.

Please take note that evertime I zhao, there's a very good reason to support my decision.

Note to self : I should stop lying.

Anyway, went to the hospital to check on my results, and they told me that they needed more time to identify the problem...

I can't decide if that was good news or bad news, but anyway, I shall move on..for now, at least...

And I couldn't have done it without your sincere support.

Thank you so much, I really, truly appreciate it.

If you hadn't done what you've done for me, I would have been the emoest boy on earth..

Thank you, once again !

(:

& good luck with him...remember, do not regret the choices that you make...it'll affect you in the long run...

Akkie, signing off.

Zooey deschanel.

2009-11-01T21:38:00.002+08:00

Zooey deschanel, I'm going crazy over you.

Please continue to be my unattainable dream.

Shorts.

2009-10-31T19:10:00.002+08:00

When you wake up in the morning and you have this..this damned feeling that something isn't right, you'll instantly know that everything is not going to be alright.

Skipped class.

2009-10-30T13:21:00.003+08:00

I skipped class again today.

Why?

I myself, do not know the answer to that question.

I don't know what to say.

I am easily influenced by the things that occur in everyday life.

Irony

2009-10-29T17:55:00.003+08:00

It's ironic, really.

You're actually reading my posts in my blog.

But thing is, you don't even have any idea that I was actually referring to you.

Feeling on my shoulders.

2009-10-28T19:13:00.006+08:00

What's happening to me?

Everytime I step into my classroom in the morning, I get this...heavy feeling on my shoulders.

It's like as if I was carrying weights.

Weights that represented my feelings.

Weights that were more like...burdens.

Oh comeee onnnn, I've been through it so many times.

I should know what's going to happen next.

It's damn cliched, really.

I've always blogged about my feelings over and over again in my blog over some girl that I was having a thing for and in the end, everything was still the same.

I'm the same old me, all alone.

You can read them yourself, they're in the archives.

Good thing about blogging is that, I can always remember what I've forgotten long ago, after reading through what I didn't even remembered typing.

Why does it have to be this way?

Why won't I ever learn my lesson?

Why do these feelings exist?

Why am I asking you all these questions?

Urgh forget it.

I'm too young to be saying all these things.

Oh btw, I'm exceptionally amazed by the movie "500 Days of Summer" .

Gives a more elaborated view about how fate and destiny does not exist, and how everything that had happened was just a coincidence in a quirkily funny way that's guaranteed to make you laugh while indirectly being able to get a deeper meaning of life through another person's point of view.

Part Vampire, Part Giant : VAGIAN.

If you get the joke, laugh hard.
If you don't get the joke, laugh hard at your own stupidity.

Akkie, signing off.

Confusion

2009-10-27T18:58:00.002+08:00

I dont get it.

Blogs exist because you feel the need to express your feelings through words and let the whole world read it, or because blogs are merely...online journals?

Damn.

Anyway, my friend once told me that it takes time to actually build a bond with someone, and if that bond was created too quickly, it wouldn't last because it lacks something. We have to go through both the good and the bad situations together to actually realise that we're "compatible" with each other, and our true forms are exposed through these kinds of situations.

And I'm not talking about boy-girl relationships. Screw those.

I'm talking about relationships instead. Friends,good friends, acquaintances. You name them.

I need to actually go through it all with my friends, to actually be able to realise if we were indeed, meant to be in a relationship together. Or friendship, for that matter.

The reason is, I feel "connected" with them too quickly without understanding them better and this might have an impact in the future.

Thanks Karen for sharing with me your tips about friendship. It was really meaningful and I was able to look at life through another point-of-view. I know that you told me this like, long ago, during semester 1. But I've only began to realise what you were trying to tell me, now.

Life is indeed, hard.

Akkie, signing off.

Clouds and Flowers.

2009-10-26T18:30:00.004+08:00

My blog's background picture is gone.

Sigh.

Anyway, everyday's a routine now.

No more outings.

No more dinners.

No more indian pokers or truth or dares.

No more majors and colonels.

I know it's a bit too fast for me to say it but, I miss those moments.

Sigh.

On a totally unrelated note, I think that I should just give up and let the whole thing go.

There's no way it could possibly be possible.

Who am I kidding?

A mixture of malay cuisine and chinese cuisine?

Nahh, I don't think so.

Goodbye.

Clouds reluctantly moved as the wind passed by,
& flowers by the river wilted.
A sign, an omen,
that certainly isn't bright.

Life's getting better.

2009-10-22T21:40:00.002+08:00

Class seems to be getting better these days, except for the fact that cognitive is my weakest subject for this semester so far, instead of Maths, considering that cognitive was like my forte during the previous semester.

It's like a routine, everyday.

Attend class, then meet Harvin and maybe the beloved W16P peeps ( except for muthafuckin' Chandhiru the asshole, son of down syndrome ) to have lunch, and then back to my class.

I'm beginning to like it, this way.

I'm strengthening the my relationship with W46F while retaining the bond with W16P peeps.

It's hard to adapt to, quickly, but it'll do.

At least I'm not being a bastard who leaves behind old friends.

& oh, W46F's joke about _____ is unbelievably funny !

Remember the word " amazing " , guys (; !

Random Phrase : Me + You = Value.

Akkie signing off.

Am I taking my steps too quickly?

Clouds & the wind, flowers by the river.

Give up.

2009-10-19T21:02:00.002+08:00

I think I did a mistake by rushing things.

Nevermind, I'll give up, just like how I always did.

(:

Monday

2009-10-19T08:47:00.001+08:00

Everyone's back today ! :D

Fazlun came back after she was warded, and Jia Hui came back after having her holidays in Malaysia.

I want Holidays too :(

Singapore Flyer.

2009-10-16T23:34:00.002+08:00

Went onboard the Singapore Flyer with Farid, Syazwan and Yazid today (:

A really enjoyable experience, I tell you.

Especially when Farid tried to walk around the cabin.

Damn hilarious!

But the downside was, I spent $50 in a day.

:(

Oh well, I could still earn more.

Oh btw, I'm starting to hate kereteks.

Makes me sneeze like there's no tomorrow.

But it's okay lah, I'll live.

Wanted to be nice to a classmate anyway (:

I want to ride the Singapore Flyer once again :(

I'm sleepy.

Bye.

Come back soon :(

2009-10-15T09:56:00.003+08:00

I don't know why I feel so fucked up today.

I've got no mood to do anything.

Argh.

Mariam's 17th birthday

2009-10-14T09:51:00.000+08:00

Celebrated Mariam's 17th birthday today ! (:

Went ice skating. It's damn awesome okay !

Adli,Asyraf,Khaliq,Mariam,Nadzeef, Sakinah, Syairah and of course, me.

Pictures are in facebook.

Happy 17th Birthday once again, Mariam !

:D

Jia Hui

2009-10-13T21:35:00.001+08:00

I realised that Jia Hui would be in the same group as I was twice a week, and that is really awesome !

She's really nice.

She's always smiling, and she laughs even at the lamest joke ever made.

What's more, she's open-minded.

I'm really glad that at least she was in W46F to liven things up.

(:

Hari Raya with FTPPS

2009-10-11T23:27:00.002+08:00

Hari raya outing with FTPPS students today (:

I loved it, totally !

Managed to be in touch with Syairah, Sakinah, Mariam, Asyraf, Nadzeef, Adli and Khaliq once again... and it was awesome !

I miss those moments when we were still together in Primary 4.

Pictures will be uploaded soon ( by Adli )

(:

Tribute to W16P.

2009-10-08T08:15:00.003+08:00

Well, I am a hypocrite.
I've taken lots of things for granted, really.
W16P, for example.
I've always been the sensitive one in class, and I've always been expecting them to cheer me up, shower me with love and attention and literally entertain me after I've "thrown my tantrum".
You can read my previous blog posts about how I was badmouthing some of my classmates in W16P, and you'll understand what I'm trying to say.
I've taken them for granted lah, really.
My new class just isn't the same as W16P AY 09/10 Semester 1...
I receive no form of attention from them.
I was considered as one of the "quietest" kid in W16P , but I can honestly say that I'm like one of the most noisiest kid in W46F.
Simple reason because, no one really talks, and no one really cares, and all I did was try and talk with each and every one of them and see if W46F may have the potential to have the same characteristics as W16P.
I'm really heartbroken.
I remembered that, in W16P, by the time it was the 3rd day of school, everyone already got to know each other and it was like as if we've been friends for a long, long time.
We'd go to the 3rd floor foodcourt and eat, or the south food court and da bao food and sit outside the class and eat like as if we owned that floor of W1...literally.
Our bond strong, and the most important thing was, it was really there, and you can actually feel it.
I don't know why I am so bloody selfish.
Whenever I'm around them, I'd take them for granted and I'd do all sorts egoistic and self-centred things, and then they'd try my best to cheer me up when I'm down and I would just shrug them off with my ignorance.
But now, I really miss those moments, the care and love that they showered me with.
I guess this is my retribution for taking the class that I actually really loved and needed, for granted.
I miss those moments when we would play F1 racing using wheelchairs across W1's 6th floor, and the times when we would roll into the toilet and play with the wheelchair inside, and more.
Especially the time when Riswan's created the "Hill-tackling" IG.
From the bottom of my heart, I'm confessing right here, right now, in this blog that, I really love and miss everyone from W16P, even Kar Hoe and O'Dell the fucker.
& I'm really sorry for acting so arrogant and selfish towards one of W16P's students, Nana.
I really hope that I can turn back in time, and do all the things together again, like going to Vivocity, Henderson Waves, Multi-story carpark, Admiralty park, etc....and spend time with each other, but this time, without conflicts.
Thank you, students from W16P, for teaching me the meaning behind every occurance in life, and how it felt like to have friends who cared and loved each other..
I really should not have taken it for granted...

P.S : To everyone from W16P who've read this, I really want to seek forgiveness from you, and I hope that you would respond to my cries..

With mournful regards,

Akkie Hakim.

1st day in W46F

2009-10-05T17:37:00.003+08:00

1st day of life in W46F.

Hmm, it's not too bad actually, things started to be "happening" faster than how it was in W16P ( started a week after ) .

With people like Khairi, Eddy, Gabriel and Mark around, things were pretty fun ! Not forgetting the rest of the class. They were awesome too !

But the first study period was a bummer though, everyone was terribly quiet.

Met the chens in class, and they turned out to be okay, except that one of them was having difficulties articulating her words well. It's really hard to understand her sometimes. But she's willing to learn so i guess it's okay.

Then, I met someone called Siti Fazlun.

She told me that her friend's called her Faz, so I guess i'm going to have another friend named Faz, cool aye?

She's a very nice girl, but a bit quiet though, haha. Hope to get to know her more (: .

And oh, the faci is....okay i have no comments. Urgh.

I think i'm going to like my new class ! :D

So long, mates.

Oh yeah, before i forget.

Today's presentation was like, totally impromtu and sudden ! LOL .

We were like, doing our ppt, and then when we saw other grouop's presentation, we knew our ppt was totally out of point.

We panicked LOL.

Then when it was our turn to present, Khairi, Ammar, Rachel, Valerie and I stood up, and introduced ourselves, and then each of us began talking about our life stories and our personal experience, IT WAS DAMN FUNNY LOL, like going with the flow. I bet the other group members had no idea that our ppt was screwed up and we were actually in trouble, and was spouting nonsense. HAHAHAHA.

Epic start for W46F 2009 Semester 2.

Okay, I'm out.

Akkie signing off. ( I know Akkie sounds gay but who the heck are you to judge ? )

W46F

2009-10-02T01:28:00.001+08:00

I think I'm going to like my new class. (:

Love.

2009-09-22T23:03:00.002+08:00

I wonder how I even fell in love when I was younger.

Because now, I do not even have any idea what the meaning of love is.

Hari raya.

2009-09-20T09:02:00.003+08:00

Today's the 20th of September.

& it's Hari Raya.

Selamat Hari Raya.

Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Forgive me, anonymous readers out there, if I've offended you directly or indirectly, in any way possible.

Because I too, am a human being.

Just like you are.

No one is unique, because everyone is special.

Sharon and Suffian

2009-09-18T00:34:00.002+08:00

Worked with pastamania's new crew members today ; Sharon & Suffian.

Though I was supposed to be the "pioneer" crew member for today, since there were only 3 of us for closing, I pretty much screwed everything up.

So much for being a "senior member" .

Suffian's a really nice guy, and he's really determined to work hard and to change for the better.

Only the crew members would understand this.

Sharon's very hardworking, and she works just like any other "seasoned" crew member even though this was her 3rd time working.

Pastamania.

Friends.

2009-09-17T00:25:00.003+08:00

Why can't i keep the bonds of friendship that I've created, strong?

Why won't my friends last?

I won't see you tonight.

2009-09-02T15:07:00.005+08:00

This post was edited on the 3rd of september 2009

I've kept on contemplating as to whether I should attend my beloved class's final outing together, mainly due to selfish reasons.

But in the end, the ones who decided was, of course, my parents.

So now, I'm left here in my room, all alone, whereas my friends were having the time of their life as W16P 2009 Semester 1 students for the very last time.

It really is something.

Cry alone, I've gone away.
No more nights, not more pain.
I'm left alone, without my strength.
I've made the change.
I won't see you tonight.

Thanks to my mum, I was allowed to go in the end.

Thank you (:

Alone

2009-09-02T12:22:00.001+08:00

After being arrogant enough to push away any form of help showered to me by my friends, I've realised that I'm all alone now.

Alone.

Smoking

2009-08-30T17:43:00.002+08:00

Light up your sticks and live high, or pay the consequences and die.

Hatred.

2009-08-24T21:04:00.000+08:00

The initiation of Hatred in an individual's mind expunges every memory that was once created, leaving only sorrow filled with guilt lingering in one's conscience.

My promise I made to myself.

2009-08-23T13:38:00.002+08:00

I promise to myself that when the clock strikes 11.59pm on my 18th birthday,
if I could not successfully change myself physically and mentally,
rid myself of my sensitive nature,
adjust the way I think and the way I perceive others,
and not achieve my only two simples wishes that I long for,
I would commit a deadly sin forbidden by almost all religious laws,
and leave this world quietly.

What's going on in my mind?

2009-08-23T00:33:00.001+08:00

I am a typical fucked up loser who wants attention, thank you.

Aiman's birthday

2009-08-22T22:35:00.002+08:00

& Btw,

Happy 12th Birthday to Muhammad Aiman, my very own younger brother !

It's a wonder that our birthdays are only a day's length different yet nothing was done.

I feel so guilty.

Why?

2009-08-22T21:46:00.001+08:00

I want to be acknowledge not just by boys, but by girls too.

Why is it so damn hard?

Somebody please, answer me.

Bitch from ex-class

2009-08-22T16:40:00.003+08:00

To that one bitch from my ex-class who's so fucking obsessed with that one childish anime character, who couldn't even bother about me during my special day even though I helped you out whenever you needed it, stop visiting my blog just to steal my photos, alright?

A new life.

2009-08-21T21:13:00.004+08:00

So I'm officially 17 now.

Wow.

I still feel the same.

Anyway, I would like to thank those who wished me today (: , really appreciate it.

I would list it in chronological order.

Faz : Thank You for having the intention of wishing me Happy Birthday right when the clock strikes 12, but falling asleep before 12 and wishing me at 1.24am in the morning.

Nurul Murni : Thank You for wishing me happy birthday, and missing me.

Afeeq : Thanks for wishing me(:

Chandhiru : Thanks for being Chandi

Eilene ( Childhood friend ) : Thanks for remembering my birthday up till now (:

Afeeq, Ajul, Harvin, Chandi and Riswan : Thanks for shouting to the whole class that today was my birthday (:

Karen : Thank you very much(:

Christina Sim : Thank You very much(:

Sarah : Thank you very much (:

Kay : Thank you very much (:

Teck Yong : Thank You (:

Mans : Thank you (:

Darrick : Thank you man (:

Nadzeef : Thanks for remembering, man (:

QQ: Thank you for offering to cook a birthday meal for me, and for wishing me (:

Aiman : Thank you (:

Adeline : Thank you (:

Eugene : Thank you (:

Stan : Thanks man (:

Chen Pei : Thank you for smsing (:

Nazeeha: Thank you so much for remembering (:

Harvin Singh : Thank you for being Harvindu Singh, and for trying to blow an "o" for me using sheesha smoke

Afeeq,Vanessa,Ajul,Chandi,Harvin, Riswan : Thank you for taking me to that sheesha place, and giving me that stun-lighter as a birthday present (:

Hariani : Thanks for wishing me through your msn's personal message section (:

Shiela, Syirin, and Sabiruna : Thank you for coming down, and for wishing me (:

Alvin Ke : Thanks for remembering that today's my birthday (:

Lim Jun Jie : Thanks for wishing me on Facebook (:

Shawn Yap : Thanks for wishing me on Facebook too (:

Zai : Thanks for wishing me on facebook (:

Amal : Thanks for the birthday wish anyway (:

I really appreciate what you guys did for me (:

As for the others who pretended not to know, or could not even give a shit about today, I'm sorry but it's goodbye.

I've already "deleted" you from my life because I couldn't care less about you, like how you couldn't even care about me.

I no longer know you (:

I don't know why I'm so moody today.

I do not want to be so childish.

I'm 17 now, omg.

What Ajul told me was true, 21/08 only comes by once a year, and to ruin it would be what a typical fucked up loser would do.

But surprisingly, I AM a typical fucked up loser.

I'll be honest here. Very honest.

I want to say very selfish things today.

To ___ , I cant stand it any longer, I ADMIT IT, I'M VERY JEALOUS, ALRIGHT ?!

Why, out of all the people I could choose to try to EVEN be acquainted with, I FUCKING CHOOSE YOU ?!

YOU WERE THE ONE WHO FUCKING CREATED THAT FUCKING FAMILY TREE SHIT THAT I DONT EVEN GIVE A SHIT ABOUT, YET SOMEHOW I FUCKING WANT TO BE INVOLVED IN IT FOR A FUCKING REASON THAT I JUST CAN'T QUITE COMPREHEND !

WHY IS IT THAT, FOR EVERY OTHER BIRTHDAYS, YOU MAKE A HUGE HOOHA ABOUT IT BUT FOR MINE, YOU CANT EVEN SAY SOMETHING SO EASY LIKE " happy birthday " ?!

I FUCKING GET JEALOUS REALLY EASILY, ALRIGHT?

YOU ONLY GET CLOSE TO THOSE WHO CAN MAKE REALLY GOOD JOKES OR THOSE WHO WERE GOOD LOOKING, AND SOMEONE LIKE ME, WHO'S NEITHER GOOD-LOOKING NOR A GOOD JOKER, WAS IGNORED.

I KNOW I'M BEING CHILDISH HERE ALRIGHT, AND I SHOULD BEHAVE LIKE A FUCKING YOUNG ADULT WHO DOESNT FUCKING ACT LIKE A CHILD BUT I CANT STAND IT ANY LONGER !

Okay nvm.

Phew.

Gah.

It's alright (:

Class's already ended, and W16P 2009 Semester 1 is history now.

Now, I would no longer have any obligations to , in any way, feel that I'm being left out.

Goodbye (: , I no longer know you.

~I feel so happy~

Yes I agree, I'm very selfish.

This is me, I really am selfish.

You can say whatever you want to me, after you read this, but take note that as of today, I no longer care, and I no longer want to be even try to get acquainted with you.

Thank you for making my life miserable, goodbye.

I should congratulate myself for getting my birthday ruined so many times.

Afterall, my wishes weren't fulfilled.

But on a happier note, I really appreciate everything that was done for me today (:

Goodbye, life.

2009-08-21T00:15:00.000+08:00

Well, it's past 12am now. A New Day.

And it happens to be a day of celebration for some, and a day of sadness and remorse for others.

I don't know which one I belong to.

Last year, today's the worst day of my life.

I don't know how to put it.

I can't even type out this post in proper english, anymore.

I don't know what's happening to me.

The sentences sound wrong and unmatched.

I don't know why this is happening.

This may be selfish, but all I want for my birthday is Recognition and Acknowledgement from my friends that isn't based on sympathy and I want a caring companion who understands me and how and what I really am, who's able to cater to my needs.

But life doesn't work that way huh.

Nothing comes easy.

No pain, no gain.

But the thing is, the pain gets really overpowering sometimes...

Urgh.

I don't feel like blogging anymore.

I'm such a wuss.

Science UT, and video producers for a day.

2009-08-20T21:52:00.003+08:00

Today marks the start of the Hungry Ghost Festival, and i take these things seriously.

As in, I wouldn't dare to break any of the taboos.

Last night I couldn't sleep well, cause at around 12 am, there were some crazy howls from dogs

Had Science UT today, and it was really weird.

I was expecting it to be really difficult, but it turned out to be quite easy.

Had some biology-based questions in it, and i'm glad I listened to Mdm Yeong attentively about genetics last year, during biology lessons in Peirce Secondary.

Received some new type of "chocolates" from Riswan, and, my god, they really deserved the term "new type".

Makes you feel high and mighty~

Left the UT venue 20 minutes early, cause afeeq, riswan, chandhiru, ajul and I promised to do so before the start of ut.

I still had some questions undone yet, but oh well.

Hanged around at civic centre for a while, and vanessa/adeline bought ice cream for all of us !

:D

After that, eugene, adeline and vanessa left.

Tiara ( a new girl i got to know today ) left too.

Then, Riswan, Nadhir, Haikal, Afeeq and I hanged around at the void deck nearby, and we made lots of videos (:

Will post it here a.s.a.p

Okay that's all for now.

I feel unsafe.

Bye.

Sheesha for the very first time, & Goodbye, W16P Semester 1 2009.

2009-08-18T21:20:00.007+08:00

Republic Polytechnic, W16P 2009 Semester 1

Today was the very last day of school, and also, the very last day of being part of W16P 2009 Semester.

It was a situation so emotional, it could leave you breathless.

I wish that what I wrote above was true though, because the last day of school wasn't much of what I had expected.

Things that happened in the classroom, I mean.

Firstly, a lot of students didn't turn up, and it totally ruined the mood because there were no more chances of taking class photos.

Violet Chan decided to make things more interesting, and told us that there wouldn't be a second break ( which lasted from 11.15 am - 1.30pm ) , and we would do our presentation at 11.30 am ( while the other classes were having their break ).

It was really awesome. Class ended at 1.30pm and we were all ready to go off, whereas all the other students from the other classes were just returning to their classes, and starting their presentations.

haha.

Anyway, after class ended, Violet Chan treated us to Pizza(:

Really nice of her.

Then after school, went to haji lane for the very first time to mark the end of W16P 2009 Semester 1.

A "sengehh" Riswan.

Riswan performing a "job" for afeeq.Really funny.

Really memorable.

I've got so much to talk about, really.

I'll miss the times when we were wheel-chair racing throughout the level.

I'll miss the times when our classmates were stalked by a group of students who were crazy about our classmates.

I'll miss the times when we would promptly walk out of the classroom and hang around at the other side of the building, when the lesson gets boring.

I'll miss the times when we would hang out in Admiralty Park at night and play taiti or Indian Poker and truth or dare games, especially when we had to walk through the unlit path in Admiralty Park ; It was a total test of courage.

I'll miss the times when AC-Division (now defunct) had to put on an act whenever a certain someone walked with us, and we would do anything and everything just to let him get out of our sight ( e.g tapping our ezlink cards to enter the train station, and tap out as soon as he got down the escalator to the interchange, or faking a gang backup phonecall, and then running all around causewaypoint just to tire that certain someone out.

I'll miss the times when we'll give the excuse of going to "One Stop Centre " when actually, we're at a different place, doing different things.

I'll miss hanging out at the library with W16P to "study".

&, I'll miss W16P.

I would like to take this oppurtunity to thank Afeeq, Harvin, Ajul, Riswan, Chandhiru and Shiela from the bottom of my heart, I really appreciate it. This was a memorable last day of being part of W16P 2009 Semester 1, especially since I got to spend the last few moments of 18082009 with you guys ; the people whom I love so much. Once again, thank you (:

Chandi, Afeeq and Ajul

Chandi, Afeeq, Riswan and Harvin

Riswan, Harvin and Akmal.

Shiela, puzzled.

Okay, this picture below is really shocking.

Even Harvin, the "happening" fella, is sad.

Quotes of the day.

"ohmmm...ayyy Chandhiru Balasundramm... ayyy son of Down Syndrome...." - Harvin and Riswan, Chanting repeatedly in the MRT.

" BRUUUUUUWAY HADIPPPAH WOOOH-HUUUU ! " - Harvin & Akmal

" We will always be W16P Semester 1 2009 in our hearts " - Chandhiru Balasubramaniam

" See see, everyone sengehh liao, especially Akmal with his Bob Marley hair " - Riswan

" Shiela ! Put the condom on before sucking ! " - Afeeq, to Shiela when she wanted the pipe and she forgot to stuff in the plastic breather onto the pipe.

" Harvin, you're so not cool and you're gay " - Shiela

" I'm taking the MRT *points to the bus stop* " - Me, when asked by Riswan which transport i was taking.

" I'll show you the Dragon " - Ajul

And worst of all, Harvin intepreted the malay word " Langsung " , for " Vagina " , so he went to Ajul and told him " Eh, kau langsung lobang triangle " .

I'll miss those moments really, really much :(

17082009, last maths lesson

2009-08-17T13:29:00.005+08:00

Last day of mathematics ( oh god, finally ! )

Lots of things happened today.

The lesson started as per normal. Boring as always, haha.

Starrted listening to the song " revenge is sweeter than you ever were " by the veronica's, and I got emo.

The song's really nice, and had lots of meanings haha.

Okay then, it was lunch time.

We bought lunch at the poly's canteen, and decided to eat at the nearby blocks.

But then, someone suggested that we have lunch at the nearby industrial park, claiming that there were tables and chairs for all of us.

So, off we went.

Took us about 10 minutes to reach there, and we were greeted by a sight that I wouldn't call " pleasant " .

No offence man, it's just not my thing.

I'll show you some pictures.

The underwear and socks, and Harvin was eating his food beside these things. Amazing huh? Psst, he vomited soon after, LOL.

Okay i'm not trying to be a racist or whatever, but...yeah, it was really disgusting. I dare you to try having lunch beside hanged wet underpants and socks that adds aroma to your food. See what happens.

Eating lunch beside hanged socks and underwear in the industrial park while having foreign workers thinking that you're one of them under the hot sun ; Now that's what I call a memorable moment for W16P 2009 Semester 1.

Okay then, here's a video of Harvin that I took. He was playing with the underwear and socks, and that really is gross. Who knows, there might have been dried stains of semen on the cloth. It's so disgusting !

After that, we went back to class, and had the presentaions going and stuffs.

We did what we would normally do everyday.

Oh btw there's this slogan thing that I found ,and it's really cool ! It can generate random slogans using your name, and I found this one very interesting.

"8 out of 10 owners who expressed a preference said their cats preferred Akmal "

Really funny aye?

(;

When the class had ended, ( to our pleasure, after that horrifying long 6th presentation) , the faci decided to show us a video about not giving up, and being motivate to strive for the best in life.

The moral of the video was " I should not stop trying ".

Really touching video, but I was expecting something else other than that.

Okay i'm not going to give anymore comments about that, since the faci would be angered by it.

Thank you, Mira Xie, for being the very first faci in RP, to scold us, and indirectly reminding about how life was like in primary and secondary school.

I have to agree, there's no discipline in polytechnic classes, everyone has freedom to do whatever they want ( e.g playing the sims 3 when the faci is teaching ).

After school ended, we played soccer in the classroom for a while, and it was really cool.

We spent the second last day of being part of W16P 2009 Semester 1 playing soccer in the classroom, ramming chairs and tables ( and laptops too ) . Really memorable.

Then. Afeeq, Stan, Eugene, Darrick and I went to the school's street soccer court to play soccer cause that was our initial plan.

That's pretty much everything about today's activities.

Tomorrow's the last day of being part of W16P 2009 Semester 1.

Going to cherish the moments that we'll spend together.

I'm being really emotional now.

:(

Let's kill Kar Hoe tomorrow !

:D

" Definition and purpose of slippers is to be slippery after being worn " - Stan, when asked why he wore slippers on a wet surface, instead of changing to his shoes "

Working after so long.

2009-08-16T23:49:00.003+08:00

Went to work after being M.I.A for almost 8 weeks.

It's a wonder, that they still allowed me to work there.

I'm really grateful.

And I got to see ANNISA today ! WOOOHOO !

She's the only one whom i've not seen for almost 8 weeks.

All the other managers, pravin, murali and wan chin ; I've already met them the day before since i had to go to the outlet.

Working was a bummer at first, because I forgot everything about working.

I knew nothing.

Anyway, Chandhiru went for the job interview today, and he immediately got the job !

Amazing, isn't it?

So far, I managed to "invite" 3 workers altogether.

Wilfred, Adli and then, Chandhiru.

:)

14082009, final science lesson for W16P 2009 Semester 1 with Zeff Chen

2009-08-15T20:32:00.002+08:00

Bad news, people.

Today's the very last Science lesson with Zeff Chen for W16P 2009 Semester 1.

:( .

And to make it worst, read the passage below.

"I will be attending a half-day National Service mobilisation briefing for the first half of the day for the final lesson (today). As such, I will not be conducting the final lesson with you all. L

But I will be back for the 2nd half of the day and once the relief facilitator finished lesson, let’s stay back for a while to take class photos for reminiscence’s sake ok? End of semester liao… J SO DON’T PON TANG CLASS HALF DAY AH! Haha.. let’s try to have a full attendance for this photo taking!

P.S: Christina Sim, I received your mail. Ok, will stay back after class to help you out with your questions J

Regards,
Zeff Chen
Academic Staff
Centre for Science and Mathematics
Republic Polytechnic"

Photos and videos are in facebook :D.

Oh btw,

Loki lok came to relief the class.

And he fucking gave me a 'D'

Thanks, fucker (:

Thomas O'Dell, W16P 2009 Semester 1 Programming facilitator.

2009-08-13T19:35:00.003+08:00

Today was Programming.

In fact, it was the very last Programming lesson with Thomas O'Dell, the one whom I would normally refer to as " the dog ", for a reason that is apparently unknown to the others, other than me.

No offence O'Dell, really.

The initial plan for today was to, you know, " zhao" class.

I came to school early in the morning and decided to write a goodbye message for Mr. O'Dell. Took a picture of it. It's below.

And here's the second part.

After that, I was almost ready to zhao, but then Afeeq called riswan and riswan told him that he won't be zhao-ing.

So, plans were cancelled, and soon after, O'Dell came into the room.

I was feeling really terrible, and was dreading the lesson.

Then, O'Dell said something shocking.

He said " Today's lesson will be an easy "A" , all you have to do is summarise what we've learnt during problems 1 - 14, and you'll get an "A " . Easy huh ? "

Omfg.

I'm glad that I didn't zhao class.

Got teamed up with riswan and adeline, and only adeline and I did the presentation -.- .

After that, slacked in the class for a while, and afeeq and harvin began taking videos, so I followed too.

Will post most of the videos soon.

Played red alert 3 while waiting for the final "6th presentation" of the semester, with O'Dell.

As usual, the 6th presentaion was boring, and I continued playing red alert 3 as he presented.

After that, the emotional parts began.

He thanked us for cooperating with him for the past 15 weeks ( oh, the irony ! ) .

But it's true, he really appreciated it, and meant what he said.

He's a really kind person actually, cause when we zhao-ed class a few weeks back, he decided to mark us as "absent" instead of giving us an "f" cause an "f" was more terrible than an "x" .

He's really stupid, really, but in a good way.

I'm going to miss him :( .

He even told the class that he honestly thought that our class, W16P 2009 Semester 1, was the toughest class he had ever taught so far, especially when Riswan was in the class ( at that point of time, riswan was outside with Afeeq and Karen ) .

Oh, Mr. O'dell.

I'm going to miss bob.turnLeft and all those python programming shits that I've lost track about right after the 6th week.

It was a really fun experience, especially since programming was the subject that we could sit and slack around outside, as he taught the rest of the class who were interested in it ( especially the foreigh students) about programming, and our very first wheel-chair race experience through the 6th floor of W1.

So,

Thank you, Thomas O'Dell, for the special learning experience that you were able to provide the class with.

Your honest comments about the class' behaviour was really appreciated.

You are the most unique faci that I've met so far, because you would never stop smiling even when under pressure due to what some of us would do, and you are the only faci who gives complete attention to PDTs.

Also, you are the only faci who would start and end the lesson on time, the most.

The programming knowledge that you've imparted to us is priceless, and it would certainly help us in our future studies.

We really appreciate what you've done for us so far, and we would remember you dearly !

I hope that you would never forget us, from W16P 2009 Semester 1.

Once again, thank you very much, Thomas O'Dell.

Choo Siew Yan, W16P 2009 Semester 1 Enterprise Facilitator

2009-08-12T21:13:00.004+08:00

Afeeq and Choo Siew Yan.

Akmal and Choo Siew Yan.

nana and Choo Siew Yan
Chang Jun a.k.a QQ and Choo Siew Yan

The class today ended with a different kind of atmosphere.

It was a scene that was considered " typical " in primary and secondary schools, and it made Choo Siew Yan, the Facilitator, change her facial expression.

Before the class ended today, all of us students from W16P 2009 semester 1 got up, faced her and, at the count of three, said " Thank you Mrs Choo " and bowed down, like how we normally used to, in primary and secondary school.

It was a really emotional and sentimental situation, considering that this was the very last time we would ever be taught by Choo Siew Yan, the great Enterprise facilitator, and the way we greeted her indirectly reminded us about the moments when we were younger.

Thank you very much, Choo Siew Yan.

Your patience and reluctance to quit teaching us due to our unacceptable behaviour was really appreciated, and we would never forget that you, Choo Siew Yan, was our very first Enterprise facilitator.

Also, thank you for the doughnuts and chocolates. It might have just been food, but it's the thought that counts.

Thank you.

The knowledge that you've shared with us is priceless.

W16P 2009 Semester 1, and Choo Siew Yan. Our last moment together. :(

And omg, kar hoe's in the picture.

Choo Siew Yan's msn appreciation message.

It's sad.

2009-08-11T21:24:00.002+08:00

I'm an emotional wreck.

I wish I could just die on my birthday so that my existence would be forgotten, and the irony about my life story would be gone forever.

Only those who are dear to me would remember me, then.

Remembering 210808, Part 1.

2009-08-10T22:04:00.002+08:00

I hope that 21/08/08 would never, ever happen again.

21/08/08, one of the worst events to have happened to me, ever.

Around this time, last year, the "interrogations" and "accusations" would've stared by now.

I'm glad I managed to get through it, really.

070809 Afeeq's 18th Birthday Celebration, and pending separation of W16P

2009-08-08T21:35:00.012+08:00

Well by now, all of you would've known that today was Muhammad Afeeq's 18TH BIRTHDAY !

CONGRATULATIONS AFEEQ !

The plan went well, and that's great !

In the morning, Adeline, Vanessa and nana gave Afeeq the vanguard birthday card that contain pictures of W16P.

After that, Eugene presented him with a shirt specially bought for him by them, at Topman. Afeeq said it cost $75. Be happy man ! :D

After lesson ended, I presented him with a video dedication that took me 3 days and 2 night's worth of sleep to create, and then I gave him a dvd containing the video ( thanks to vanessa for this idea ) , and a birthday card that had almost everyone's birthday wishes in it.

Then, we stayed in class for a while, and then walked towards causewaypoint to board a bus heading towards vivocity, and we proceeded to walk towards the top floor of the vivocity.

Went to Giant superstore, and bought 400g of chicken ham, 6 tuna cans, 2 loaves of bread, 4 1.5l bottled drinks and 2 packets of twisties. We were going to have a picnic at the top floor of vivocity, it's so cool ! xD

After we settled down, we had our dinner, and it was so fun. Soon, Karen came from behind, surprising Afeeq with the oreo cheescake that she bought for him as his birthday present. Remember she told you she had a surprise for you in the video? Hahaha that was it :D, and a mrs field's blueberry muffin too. Sweet, huh?

Okay so after all that , we played another version of truth or dare , called " would you rather " , and we had some crazy dares going on back there, hahaha !

Really, really wild things happened, and the birthday boy was the most luckiest(or unluckiest), depends on how you look at it, because he had to do the most dares.

Okay, this is the video taken when Karen surprised Afeeq with the birthday cake.

Hahaha it's really amazing !

And next is the video specially made by Afeeq, to thank W16P.

Enjoy ~

A message that's simple and straight to the point, yet filled with meaning that words of speech could never easily convey. It feels really heartwarming.

Once again, Happy 18th Birthday, Afeeq !

Hope that it'll be the best birthday for you, ever !

On a side note,

I looked up at the sky and saw that the moon was orange in colour. It was a really stunning view, and it was the second time I had seen such a thing. The moon was completely orange in colour, almost crimson-like, and it was emanating an aura that felt...weird. You'll feel amazed, stunned and afraid,all at the same time. I was completely flabbergasted. Afeeq then told me that it was a bad omen, and it conveys a message to people that something terrible was going to happen soon.

It's true.

Something bad really did happen, and something bad was going to happen soon.

The tragedy that occured was the death of two year 3 students from our very own Republic Polytechnic, at the KTM tracks that leads Singapore trains to Malaysia. Both were found dead at around 5am on the 8th of august, 2009. The boy suffered a severed left leg and a badly wounded head, and the girl suffered a severed right leg and multiple fractures on her body.

It really was a sad event, especially since the students who died was a boy and a girl, and it indirectly creates an impression that it was due to a relationship problem.

Rest in Peace, our seniors.

And the tragedy that will happen soon, really soon, is the separation of W16P 2009 semester 1.
It was uncalled for, we were really shocked that RP's education system worked like this.

But there is no way that we can escape from it.
We have to face it.
We have to face it, strong.
We have to be strong and not allow this setback ruin our relationship with each other forever.
We have to survive through it without decreasing our love, care and concern for each other.

We have to strive for the best, without regrets.

Best joke.

" Chandhiru Balasundram, son of Down syndrome. " - Mohd Riswan

Best quote.

We,
A group of friends,
Pledge to stay friend forever no matter what,
Go through both thick and thin together,
& share pain and laughter,
So as to achieve happiness, appreciation and contentment,
For our friendship.

Remember each other, and do not forget the moments through thick and thin that we've spent together, W16P.

070809

2009-08-08T21:33:00.000+08:00

Will post about 070809 soon.

Cool sentences

2009-08-07T09:37:00.004+08:00

" Love is a sensation, caused by a temptation, to feel penetration. A guy sticks his location in a girl's destination, to increase the population for the next generation, did you get my explanation, or do you need a demonstration?
-Taken from a friend's blog.

I apologise to whoever created this for "lifting" the sentences or whatever you call it, but I just can't hold myself back from writing those sentences in my blog so that I can remember it.

It really is amazing and amusing.

Project for a friend.

2009-08-06T23:21:00.002+08:00

I've started on this particular project on the 5th of August 2009, at 10pm sharp.

And as I was completing my project at around 2am+, my laptop hanged.

4 hours of hard work, and 4 hours of sleep, gone. *poof* .

Only had 3 hours of sleep on that day.

& today, I'm trying to complete that project as soon as possible due to some potential unforeseen circumstances.

Started doing it at 8pm.

I'm curious about how long I would be able to stay awake, today.

Good luck to me.

W16P 2009 Semester 1 videos

2009-08-05T21:52:00.003+08:00

I promised to post the videos, so here they are.

The first few videos would be the one where riswan disturbs kar hoe, and I'll warn you beforehand, only W16P students would be able to understand the video.

Kar Hoe's demise.

Part 1.

Part 2.

Part 3.

Memories of W16P 2009 Semester 1, yo.

It doesn't matter if you understand it or not, cause it's for us W16P-ians.

Sorry if i'm being a bastard yo, but seriously, I posted the videos so that students from W16P 2009 semester one can remember these moments.

Alright, the next video is about RP's "new" IG created by Mohd Riswan, called " Hill-tackling" . It's simple, all you have to do, is roll down a hill and survive.
Watch the video to get a better understanding.

Hill-tackling.

Alright that's all for now. I've got lots more stuffs to post, but i'll leave it till next time.

Goodbye.

Hiatus for a day?

2009-08-04T22:48:00.002+08:00

After 13 weeks of struggling through programming, W16P has finally decided to stand up for our rights, and the best way to do that was to "zhao" class.

Okay, totally no link.

Some of my classmates and I might have been the heroes and heroines for the day, cause "we came to class the latest but left class the earliest" .

I've got so much to talk about but my mind has been occupied by problems consecutively so I guess I'll leave it here for now.

Bye.

Happy day

2009-08-03T23:44:00.002+08:00

Lepak-ed with my classmates today.

And it made me feel really happy, because many things happened.

Riswan, Afeeq and I got "high" ( eh don't anyhow think okay ) , and we were like gazing at the moon and the sky will lying down on the hill next to RP's sport complex.

Had so much fun man.

Riswan even created a new IG called " Hill-tackling"

At first, I thought that rolling down a hill was something easy that " even kids could do " .

But try it for yourself, and you'll know how i feel after i tried it.

After the sixth or seventh turn, you won't be able to stop your body from turning, and your body would be rolling and rolling on it's own.

It's an activity that requires a lot of guts and stamina.

After facing the harsh tracks that you've rolled on, you have to face the sudden intense giddiness from rolling too much.

You won't be able to even stand up after rolling cause your head would be all topsy turvy.

After that, watched a basketball match, and RP lost to some ****ers.

Pftt.

Took a video of Riswan promoting his new IG, " Hill-tackling". Will post it here or in facebook in future (:

After that, talked to a good friend of mine whom I was trying to "avoid" but with valid reasons, and everything went okay.

We even became siblings !

I'm really proud of that, and it made me feel genuinely happy, seriously.

I really appreciate it.

It feels really good to be accepted.

I promise that I'll keep the promise that I've made.

I'm really happy (:

Oh yeah one more thing, Cheer up Mans !

Don't think too much about it aye, stay happy always, you'll look good that way (:

And to think that after all this, we're going to be separated in 2 weeks' time...

Urgh, I shouldn't spoil my mood right now.

W16P, Thank You (:

" Life is like a shoe. It takes you wherever you want to, but it can never move on its' own " - Riswan. ( I know there's no link yet, but it'll make sense in time. In time. )